I’ve talked about working out. I’ve talked about being healthy. However, now it’s time to talk about the thing everyone tries to avoid and wishes weren’t true. If you truly want to change your health, your weight, your lifestyle…it is is MAINLY about what you put in that pie hole…and unfortunately it’s not pie. This is where I struggle for me.
Guess what? I just lost 4 pounds. After a month of consciously logging everything that I ate and even adding vegetables to my breakfast, I see some results. I may or may not have given myself a high five early Saturday morning. So what did I do to reward myself? Had the worse weekend ever of eating. It started with movie theater popcorn…then jelly beans…then more candy….then Burger King (ew)….then more jelly beans. I probably gained my 4 pounds back in 5 minutes. It is the most frustrating thing ever.
Let’s be honest here for a second. People probably look at me and see fit, Crossfit junkie who is in amazing shape for having two freakin’ kids grow in my body. Yes…there may be some truth in that. I’ve come along way and I’m proud of my journey. BUT…when I look in the mirror at night, or when I am dead out of energy by 10:30am, I am not 100% pleased with where I am. There’s some curves in places I wish there weren’t and extra padding where I would like a little bit more muscle tone. I have a little pity party. I whine and complain to my friends. I have pep talks with myself about how I am going to be AWESOME….starting Monday.
Just because I have the “fit mom” look, doesn’t mean there isn’t real struggle going on every day. It would be so much easier to get a coke at McDonalds on the way home from preschool, give into those countless sugar cravings, and just say “I will start again tomorrow.” Tomorrow never gets here. I have to make decisions every single day to eat right and be healthy to get to the goals I want to achieve. Even though there is no one holding a gun up to my head forcing me to grab one more handful of jelly beans, it’s hard to turn away from the poisonous sugar that is lying to my brain about how great it is.
This little blog post is more like an intervention for myself…and for anyone else that may be going through the same thing. If I want to achieve my fitness goals, I am the only one standing in my way. I know my limits. Some people can give themselves a little treat and that satisfies their cravings. I know for me, one treat equals a handful, which equals me…starting all over again to fight those strong, evil voices in my head reminding me of how good those jelly beans were. It’s a hard fight. WHY DO I DO IT TO MYSELF??
This is what I’ve learned during this health journey. Change is only going to happen if you take yourself out of your comfort zone. True change isn’t easy….or everyone would be doing it. If you slip up and give yourself that treat- don’t beat yourself up. Don’t make it a, “I’ll do better tomorrow” (after you eat the rest of the pizza and the entire box of cookies) but make it a healthy choice with the NEXT thing you eat. It’s not a quick fix. You cannot have the best of both worlds…or better yet, have your cake and eat it too. You can’t want a healthy lifestyle and still eat and do all of the unhealthy things. Change will never happen that way. If you have things tempting you…GET RID OF IT! Throw it away. I just poured an entire 2 liter of coke down the drain that someone gave me…because if I just let it sit there, I will finish it in 2 days. Do what you have to do to help yourself achieve the goals you want. Stop making excuses for yourself!
I have to make a decision every day to go the healthy route. It’s something I am no master at and still working to get better at every day. If I am upset with the way I look, feel or perform, I just need to look in the mirror and blame that girl staring back at me. No one is in charge of how my goals turn out, except me. Don’t wait for tomorrow. Your tomorrow can start today…it’s your choice.